"Screw you, whiskey! And screw you peppermint schnapps! I ain't your bitch NO MORE! You get me?"
Vulcan Greeting

Insight

Recently I've had some insights into some of my choices, and decided to quit drinking. I don't expect anyone to support my decision, or understand it. Frankly, I don't expect anyone to care. I don't even care to explain it either. Drinking cost me a fight with a close friend recently, that's enough eh? A huge weight has come off my shoulders, and I feel some freedom. Every day I realize what a burden it was to me and feel happy to have quit. I realize I am not responsible enough to drink normally (if that's even possible?), and that I also don't care for some future health problems like killing brain cells or liver damage. I quit smoking approx. 2 years ago, and have had great success on that. Sugar, caffeine, and no exercise loom on the horizon. That's funny. Imagine a Pepsi can and a sugar packet with angry faces walking next to some fat guy with rakes and torches coming to attack! Ahhhhhh! Anyway, how are you?
I'm pretty surprised at how good it feels not to drink and thought that it would be terrible and agonizing. I've been to some bars since, and haven't had any REAL temptation other than the taste. I didn't even order a near beer. I'm drinking more water, probably not an adequate amount, but it definitely feels good. I did have some physical withdrawals, not powerfully ones, though interesting. I had tingling arms and head and a slight euphoria for short periods. Thinking about not drinking is harder then actually just not drinking. Oh well.
I've had lots of inspiration, mostly people whom don't really know they inspire me. I like to keep it that way. Some inspiration of a kind also, where I imagined what I would be like 20 years from now if I continue to drink. I haven't really drank heavily, but had consistent party behaviors of drinking too much and looking like an idiot. I wasn't always noticeably drunk, or did I always consume the most. I just started to see myself from strangers eyes and thought:
"That guy looks like a drunken idiot. What a loser."
Ouch.
Any way, more to come.