Drink it son, it's bloody wholesome!

The dreaded drive by

 

Comments on my Sobriety

Well, folks........ Yes still sober. It has been just a little tough a few times. It was harder to quit smoking but socially much more difficult. It's amazing! "hey just have beer, if you just drink beer you'll be okay." or "Why did you quit drinking? You didn't have a problem." or "You're not an alcoholic." Going to bars is NOT the hard part. The hard part is basically the mental relaxation you get from leaning back, sighing, and having a cold one. I can duplicate this without alcohol, as I've learned, but it's been difficult learning which ways are best. So far I went to the pistol range and that was a kick! It was reeeeallllly fun, and was very relaxing. Which reminded me of archery. Archery was also incredibly relaxing, and felt healing or renewing.
I had a massage. No, no happy ending. Just a healing massage. That helped my stress level too. Enjoying a movie, or just stretching has given me good results. Mostly the stretching. Movies....eh. If it is one I already really like, or makes me smile that helps and gives me that long drag satisfaction.
Other notes.
No super human powers or mind control abilities have come to me from not drinking. I didn't suddenly get hot looking, and no 6 pack abs. I've gained some weight but I'm not sure if that is why or if it has been my inactivity. My short temper has gotten no less shorter, but I have gotten more insightful which is neat to notice in myself. I actually sleep somewhat better. It's not like I'd drink to get some sleep but the rest is better without drinking.
I make an ass out of myself much much less now. Which is great. The only times now are legit, and don't involve puking or slurring my speech. I'm killing less braincells which is always good. I haven't taken up other self-destructive habits, I've actually tried to cut back on sugar. I don't blow huge amounts of cash on stupid shit like $30 for like six beers. I know that some alcoholics buy their brew on sale and stay home to avoid DUI but I still have even that money in my pocket. Some social interactions are a bit awkward with out the social lubrication of alcohol. I didn't think I'd experience high school feelings of being awkward ever again, but I was wrong!
In the final analysis....
I've been looking into school to advance my career. I'm thinking more long term. I realize I need to take care of my body and health. I can watch my friends or total strangers as they drink which I hadn't done since childhood. It's pretty fun, and annoying at once. I'm regretful of some of the parties where I got stupid, and some I actually look back on and laugh with some wistfulness. I think I still have physical withdrawals but they go quickly. At this point I see right thru the marketing of alcohol and realize it's a juvenile sham, and what idiots we are to fall for it. Sex sells, and so do the other hollow lies. I know there are people who can have a few drinks, stop, and get a buddy to drive them home but that was never me. I don't think that's me yet so I will continue to remain sober.